The wife & I headed up to KNON this morning with a bunch of songs about monkeys in the hopes of raising some money for the station on the first day of Spring Pledge Drive & despite all the monkey songs, we raised very little.
Remember what I said yesterday? "I have made the mistake of having my self-esteem tied up with how I do with raising money." So I've naturally felt awful today. Because while there are certainly different methods for being successful with pledge drives - good premiums, powerful pitches, etc. - it seems the easiest way to encourage people to support what you do is to do a good show, one that people enjoy listening to. When no one (well, three people) feels moved to help out the needy non-commercial radio station in your show's name, it's hard not to find it an indictment on your abilities as a programmer.
So yeah, I take it as solid evidence that I suck.
To make matters worse, I sat down tonight to watch The Last Jedi for the first time since seeing it in the theater, where I was very surprised that I dug it, & the blu-ray disc fucks up almost exactly at the half-hour mark.
A brutal morning, a disappointing evening. Let's hope this doesn't feed into an extremely awful episode of Self Help Radio this week.