Self Help Radio 020326: Stubborn

This morning I was trying to think of an image for a show with the theme "stubborn" while walking the dogs. & then my dog Stuart refused to move when he saw something in someone's yard. My wife quickly snapped the above picture. Moving a beagle when it is fixated on something is like trying to drag an anchor across a beach. I may required a physical therapist.

Here is the stubborn show. Not the stubbornness show! The stubborn show. I am adamant about that.

You can listen now or whenever by going to the Self Help Radio website or going to the KBOO website. Most everything that happened is listed below.

& for those who stubbornly refuse to listen to my dumb show, I salute you & dedicate this show to you.

Self Help Radio Stubborn Show

"My Stubborn Heart" Onie Wheeler _White Lightning Cherokee_

"Stubborn Heart" Kitty Wells _Winner Of Your Heart_

"Two Stubborn People" Floyd Tillman _Let's Make Memories_

introduction & definitions

"Stubborn Kind Of Fellow" Marvin Gaye _Anthology_

"Stubborn Heart" The Sheppards _The In Crowd (The Story Of Northern Soul)_

"Stubborn" The Charlottes _LoveHappy_

"Stubborn Or Bust" Shrag _Life! Death! Prizes!_

"Stubborn Little Mule" KateGoes _Animals Who Want To Be Other Animals_

interview with listener Jed, who claims to be stubborn

"Stubborn" Emily Easterly _Cole_

"Stubborn Mule Blues" Edgar Jones _Soothing Music For Stray Cats_

"Stubborn Beast" Jolie Holland _Springtime Can Kill You_

"Stubborn Man" The Old Ceremony _Walk On Thin Air_

"Too Stubborn To Fold" Wheels On Fire _Get Famous!_

interview with listener Betty, who had a stubborn mother

"Stubborn Walls" Nicole Bianchet _House Of Silence_

"Stubborn Taurus" Danella Hocevar _Hearts Will Be Broken Here_

"Stubborn Day" Lowly _Heba_

"Stubborn Signs" ShitKid _20/20 ShitKid_

"Ballad Of Two Stubborn Men" The Younger Lovers _Young Brothers_

interview with listener Ned, who raised five stubborn children

"Stubborn Land" Marybeth D'Amico _The Light Inside_

"Stubborn Love" Edie Brickell & New Bohemians _Hunter & The Dog Star_

"Stubborn Vassals" Ivor Cutler _A Flat Man_

"Too Stubborn" The Marshall Tucker Band _A New Life_

"Stubborn Man" The Antlers _Green To Gold_

conclusion & goodbye

"Nyamwanga Kumva! ('Stubborn Until The End!')" The Good Ones _Rwanda Is My Home_

"Stubborn Problems" Femi Kuti _Femi Kuti_

Whither Stubborn?

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Although I love radio & I love encouraging people to do radio & I train people to do radio, there's very little more tedious to me than talking about my own radio show. But then I have a blog where I'm supposed to talk about my own radio show. So I now have to do the thing that I don't like doing. I'd rather you listen to the show to see what it's all about. Ah well.

There was a moment early on doing Self Help Radio when I realized all my themes were nouns. (Or gerunds or participles or proper nouns, anyway.) My contrariness was offended. I started doing shows whose themes were phrases, verbs, adjectives, whatever. I can't think of an example offhand, but let's say I had a show & the theme was "swim." Inevitably someone would say, "Why not have the theme be swimming?"

So too this week's theme. Why "stubborn"? Why not "stubbornness"? The short answer is, who cares? The long answer is, there aren't songs that are explicitly about stubbornness but lots of songs that reference being stubborn & stubborn things. Why not "being stubborn" or "stubborn things"? You must agree that's kinda awkward. An adjective being a theme may also be awkward but I've done it long enough that it's no longer awkward to me. But "being stubborn"? Yikes, I'd be more embarrassed than I usually am!

There are lots of stubborn people in my life & one of them is our newest adopted dog, Stuart. He's nine years old & was not raised well. He was very large when we adopted him & now is still large but less substantial - on our first walks he would pant so hard I thought he would have a heart attack, but now he does those walks with a spring in his step. When it comes to food, he cannot be moved. Nothing distracts him. He is the essence of the stubborn creature. This show was inspired by him.

A stubborn show for a stubborn beagle (& any other stubborn being). On KBOO tonight midnight to 2am. 90.7fm in town, kboo dot fm everywhere. KBOO stubbornly refuses to put me on anytime else.

Preface To Stubborn: I Grew Up With A Stubborn Mother

There are so very many stories I can tell you about my mother's stubbornness. She remained stubborn until finally dementia overtook her mind - although my sister thinks there was still some of it in the way she looked at her at the end. But instead of regaling you with stories that show bullheadedness leading to exasperation & frustration, I want to tell you what happened to me because I grew up with a stubborn mother.

& to be sure, I am not a psychologist nor have I spoken to one about this subject. I don't imagine I am discussing anything universal or even general - just my own experience.

Years after I had left home - when being around my mother was something that happened once a year for just a few hours - I got to see my mother being stubborn in the way that she must've been when I was a kid. In effect I could watch it a little more objectively - she had no power or authority over me, I was a visitor in her life at the time, & I felt a little like I was watching something from outside, as through a picture window.

& it made think how she must've been like that many times in my childhood. She would get obsessed about a topic & she would not let you change the subject. She wanted something & she was going to have it. She wanted you to do something & you were going to do it. She would be focused in such a way that precluded any other opinion - in fact, to offer an opinion, to suggest you might disagree, would be as offensive as if you'd yelled at her, or even struck her. I watched with fascination as my mother held on to some dumb thought or opinion or command as if for dear life. & I could see myself, as a child, buckling under that onslaught.

Because I was very attached to my mother as a child. She liked it that way.

My sister Pat - my oldest sister - became a very stubborn woman. I suspect my sister Karin - my youngest sister - has some stubbornness in her but she's a very reasonable person - she is open to discussion. I don't know about my brothers because we're not close, but I'm sure some of them have a stubborn streak. But what happened to me is that I learned to do anything - anything - to keep from having to endure such stubbornness in my life.  It made me prone to be accommodating - I've been accused of being a people pleaser. But I think now it was as a reaction to my mother's stubbornness that I learned to compromise rather than have to be overwhelmed by the power of someone else's stubbornness.

Is this a common reaction to or result of having a stubborn parent? I don't know. I'm kind of afraid to look it up. But it's something that's close to the theme this week. My mother was hella stubborn.

Seriously, I could tell you stories. Remind me to tell you stories. When my mother told stories of her stubbornness, she told them as the hero of those stories. I could only sympathize with the people who were inevitably negatively affected by her intractability. Because I had been one of them, often.

Coming Up Tomorrow On The Dickenbock Report: Robinson Crusoe Day

(image from the Wikipedia)

February 1 is Robinson Crusoe Day. Sure, you've read Daniel Defoe's novel, & you've seen television shows & maybe even movies based on/inspired by it. But have you heard a radio show about Robinson Crusoe? We think not.

Explore Robinson Crusoe tomorrow, February 1, on The Dickenbock Report on XRAY FM - 91.1+107.1fm in Portland, online everywhere at xray dot fm. Maybe you'll even find out what Friday does on a Sunday afternoon!

This Week In Self Help January 23 25 + 27

Really, I was hanging upside down off one of the buildings in downtown Portland when I took that picture. It's totally not a picture I took rightside up then flipped in an image-editing program. That would be dishonest.

Friday January 23rd I subbed a show on XRAY. Played lots of random stuff. You can listen to it on the XRAY website if you want.

Sunday January 25th there was an episode of The Dickenbock Report where I played songs with "around the world" as their theme, since it was the anniversary of Nellie Bly returning on her historic journey around the world, which took her just over 72 days. You can listen to it on the XRAY website if you'd like.

Tuesday January 27th there was an episode of Self Help Radio with the theme "upside." You can listen to it on the Self Help Radio website. & you can listen to it on the KBOO website. If that's something you think you might enjoy.

Also Tuesday January 27th there was an episode of Corporate Standardized Programming wherein I played music by artists we lost in July of last year. You can listen to it on the Self Help Radio website. & you can listen to it on the KBOO website (after Self Help Radio). If you have nothing better to do.

That's what I did this past week. What were you up to?

Self Help Radio 012726: Upside

The downside of this upside show is that there are three upside down songs to each upside song. That affects you not at all but I was hoping I could do an entirely "upside" show. & maybe later an "upside down" show. I totally bet I could do an entire "downside" show!

But let's not dwell on what might've been. Here is the show. There are lots of groovy tunes & goofy interviews & the occasional foibles of someone doing a late night radio show while being a little tired. Same old same old.

Listen to the show on the KBOO website or on the Self Help Radio website. The latter may require the username SHR & password selfhelp to access. Everything that happened on the show is below.

Listening to this show upside is neither recommended nor not recommended.  It's not like I'm an expert or anything.

Self Help Radio Upside Show

"I'm Going Upside Your Head" Jimmy Reed _Jimmy Reed At Soul City_

"Upside Mine" The Chatham Singers _Juju Claudius_

"Looking For The Upside" The Photocopies _Counterintuition_

introduction & definitions

"The Upside" Raavi _The Upside_

"The Upside" Carissa Johnson & The Cure-Alls _The Good EP_

"There Is No Upside" James Yorkston & The Second Hand Orchestra _The Wide, Wide River_

"I Don't Believe You Want To Get Up & Dance (Oops Up Side Your Head)" The Gap Band _Ultimate Collection_

"On The Upside" Xena _Electro Funk Sessions (The Finest Electronic Street Jams From Back In The Day)_

interview with What's The Upside podcast host Chris Talbot

"Upside Down" Bruce Haack _The Electronic Record For Children_

"Upside Down Blues" Curtis Jones _Complete Recorded Works In Chronological Order Volume 4_

"My Smile Is Just A Frown (Turned Upside Down)" Carolyn Crawford _The Complete Motown Singles | Vol. 4: 1964_

"Upside Down" Norman Conquest _The Rubble Collection Volumes 1-10_

"Inside, Outside, Upside Down" Josie & The Pussycats _Stop, Look, & Listen: The Capitol Recordings_

"I Keep Her Picture Hanging Upside Down" Jerry Lewis _The Capitol Collector's Series_

interview with Jenny & Jeremy of Portland's Upside Club

"Upside Down" Magazine _The Correct Use Of Soap_

"Upside Down" The Jesus & Mary Chain _Psychocandy_

"My Brain Is Hanging Upside Down (Bonzo Goes To Bitburg)" Ramones _Animal Boy_

"Inside Out & Upside Down (With You)" The Cramps _Flamejob_

"Hanging Upside Down" David Byrne _Uh-Oh_

interview with my friend Jasper who likes to be upside down

"Upside-Down" Yo La Tengo _May I Sing With Me_

"A Planet Upside Down" Pearl & The Oysters _Planet Pearl_

"World Upside Down" Tears Run Rings _Always, Sometimes, Seldom, Never_

"Upside Down On Brighton Beach" Shirley Lee _Shirley Lee_

"Love In The Upside Down" David Holmes & Raven Violet _Blind On A Galloping Horse_

conclusion & goodbye

"Turn Things Upside Down" The Happy End _Turn Things Upside Down_

"Leaving Everything Upside Down" Gretta Seabird _Cycling EP_

"Downhill (Upside Down Optimist)" Jeremy Ivey _Invisible Pictures_

"Upsidedown" The Mighty Project _Total Football_

Whither Upside?

That is a picture of my grey tabby cat Bluto upside down. He was all of maybe five months old in that picture. But to this day he still enjoys being upside down. You can hold him & he will stretch out until he is upside down. No other creature in the house - nor any cat I have ever owned - enjoys this particular thing.

Anyway. The theme this week is "upside." It could also be "upside down" but I wanted to find songs that specifically mentioned the word "upside." Since an "upside" is a different thing than the word "upside" in the phrase "upside down." Spoiler alert! I found more upside down songs than upside songs. Perhaps I'll discuss it on the show.

& no this isn't telling you why that's the theme because the reason it's the theme is a little dumb. I was looking at the list of themes I have explored (which you can find here) & I noticed I had only explored - in 23 years! - themes that began with the letter U a mere eleven times. What could I explore to add something to that short list? "Up" would have too many choices. My upside down? But then I thought - let's see if there are any songs just using the word "upside." There couldn't be a downside to that!

The upside show airs in this upside down world tonight from midnight to 2am on KBOO - 90.7fm in town, kboo dot fm everywhere. Maybe there's an upside to all this.

Preface To Upside: Upside Down Nation

That picture was taken in Fort Worth, Texas, a lifetime ago. Or maybe just eight years. It seems too long ago. Every day we walked with the dogs in our neighborhood, & our walk took us past an elementary school, Ridgelea Hills Elementary. Sometimes our walk took us behind the school, in the area where the children played/had recess. One day - apparently March 11, 2018 - I saw that someone had taken apart some monkey bars - that's what we used to call them - & turned the thing upside down.

A year after that, my wife would accept a job in Portland & my life would change again, but I had no idea that would happen when I took this picture. Then as now, I did my best to find joy where I could - that usually involves radio, my pets, & my wife - despite what is happening in the world. I have lived through the Reagan presidency, as well as two Bushes, & was living through Trump One at the time that picture was taken. It has been exhausting but nothing could have prepared me for the first three weeks of this year.

This morning on The Dickenbock Report, I said something like this: Please don't think because I try to have fun with this ridiculous radio show that I'm not aware of the creeping fascism that threatens our lives. I try to have fun but it's hard when goons who can't even pass an open-book test murder nurses in our streets. Please know I'm sad & angry & know this cannot stand.

What's true is I feel helpless too & don't want to be like my German grandparents were in the 1930s when Germany went full fascist. My mother used to tell me about people in her village disappearing but also that the economy was great & my grandfather could buy a car for the very first time. I don't want the fact that I allowed to make stupid radio shows to be a freedom I have at the expense of others. I am carrying within me an alarming amount of guilt.

The people in Minnesota are so strong, the proud boy gestapo so despicable. We marched in the No Kings March & the stations I am at are proudly anti-fascist. But I do wish I could do more.

If you notice any hesitancy - any embarrassment - any small lack of commitment to my programs - it's because seeing my fellow citizens stand up to a mad king's private racist army while I make dumb noises into a microphone seems like a betrayal. & yet there's really little else I can do.

My apologies. But also my gratitude if you understand. Because I'll keep making my dumb radio shows.

Coming Up Tomorrow On The Dickenbock Report: Nellie Bly Around The World

(image from Wikipedia)

On January 25, 1890 - almost 136 years go - journalist Nellie Bly complete her journey around the world - in just over 72 days! For this anniversary, The Dickenbock Report will talk about that impressive feat & listen to music about all things "around the world."

That's tomorrow - Sunday - from noon to 1pm on XRAY FM - 91.1+107.1fm in Portland, xray dot fm everywhere. All around the world!

This Week In Self Help: January 16 18 + 20

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Yeah that Time Magazine cover is weird isn't it. I lived through George HW Bush's presidency & could not care any fucking less about him so I am not nor will ever be curious enough to find out why he was Time's "Men Of The Year" - the truth is, he was about the least "manly" President this country has ever had, although the baby currently in the White House comes very close. I only picked the image because he was the 1990 "Men Of The Year" & 1990 played a role in this week's radio stuff I did.

A week ago - Friday January 16th - I was on The Songcircle on KBOO. I played lots of new releases. You can listen to that show on the KBOO website.

Sunday January 18th on The Dickenbock Report on XRAY I played songs about x-rays because of some anniversary involving x-rays. It was just an excuse to play songs about x-rays on a station called XRAY. You can listen to that show on the XRAY website or on the Self Help Radio website.

Monday January 20th on Self Help Radio on KBOO I played lots of my favorite music from 1990. You can listen to that show on the KBOO website or on the Self Help Radio website.

Also Monday January 20th on Corporate Standardized Programming on KBOO I played lots more new releases. You can listen to that show on the KBOO website (after Self Help Radio) or on the Self Help Radio website.

Remember! Username SHR password selfhelp! It may come in handy!

Seriously though, I hope that cover upset HW Bush. He was such a dumb douchenozzle.

Self Help Radio 012026: 1990

(images found at Discogs)

The time in that book when Proust ate a cookie & it made him remember his life? If that book were about me, it would be me hearing a song & its associations carrying me into the past. I have memories related to so many of the releases I played on this show. I guess the songs themselves become memories. & maybe they become over time as untrustworthy as memories.

Anyway. Here's this week's show, my birthday show, my favorite music from 1990. Some of it, anyway. There was way too much. You might know a little more about me knowing these are things I love. More than likely though if we both like them, we'll know we might have more in common.

You can listen to the show at the KBOO website or at the Self Help Radio website. At the latter, you may need a username+password to access. Try SHR + selfhelp. Everything I played on the show is listed below. Everything I said on the show, well, you have to listen for that.

Today I start year 58!

Self Help Radio 1990 Show

"Spoken Word" Ed's Redeeming Qualities _More Bad Times_

"Down To The Well" Pixies _Bossanova_

"Oh!" The Breeders _Pod_

"Diane (Excerpt)" Kyle MacLachlan _"Diane..." The Twin Peaks Tapes Of Agent Cooper_1990 cassette)

"Morality Is Vanity" Momus _Monsters Of Love: Singles 1985-90_

"The Weeping Song" Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds _The Good Son_

"November Spawned A Monster" Morrissey _November Spawned A Monster_

"Never Enough" The Cure _Never Enough_

"My Finest Hour" The Sundays _Reading, Writing, & Arithmetic_

"Crawl" The Wedding Present _3 Songs_

"Do You Have To Break My Heart" The Darling Buds _Crawdaddy_

"Don't Ask Why" My Bloody Valentine _Glider_

"I Fell In Love Last Night" Heavenly _I Fell In Love Last Night_

"Forever Changed" Lou Reed & John Cale _Songs For Drella_

"One Word" Brian Eno & John Cale _Wrong Way Up_

"Telephone Thing" The Fall _Extricate_

"Out Of My Mind On Dope & Speed" Julian Cope _Skellington_

"Love Grows (Where My Rosemary Goes)" The Siddeleys _Alvin Lives (In Leeds): Anti Poll Tax Trax_

"No Blue Skies" Lloyd Cole _Lloyd Cole_

"Baby Stones" Robert Forster _Danger In The Past_

"Beatles & The Stones" The House Of Love _The House Of Love_

"Fifty-Fifty Clown" Cocteau Twins _Heaven Or Las Vegas_

"Miss Otis Regrets/Just One Of Those Things" Kirsty MacColl & The Pogues _Red Hot + Blue_

"Sweet Jane" The Blue Aeroplanes _World View Blue_

"De-Luxe" Lush _Mad Love EP_

"She's On Drugs" The Jazz Butcher _Cult Of The Basement_

Whither 1990?

a self-portrait from 1990

On my birthdays I play my favorite music from a year in my life. On the first episode of Self Help Radio that aired around the time of my birthday, I played music from the year I was born, 1968. That was in 2003. I have made it up to 1990.

Like last year, I have found so much music from that year that I love. I will undoubtedly fill up some other shows on KBOO's schedule late at night playing that leftover music. For tonight's show, I am playing music I loved in 1990 as it happened - mostly. There are a few artists that became important to me later whose work of that year means a great deal to me now. But the vast majority of the music I'll play tonight you would have found me listening to in 1990, when I was a mere 22 years old.

Music has always been important to me. It's how I process my feelings. It connects me to more memories than anything - except maybe trauma. It has been & remains my salvation. Since I was in a relationship in 1990 (albeit a one-sided one), that was the first time in my life that music took a back seat in my head & my heart. I didn't have ready access to my music either, for reasons I explained yesterday. & my "girlfriend" didn't like some of the music I liked, & was unhappy if I played it around her - so of course I didn't play it around her.

It's not that I'm saying I didn't need music in the same way as I had previously - I just didn't think I needed music in the same way as I had previously. It's a mistake that perhaps many people make. When that relationship came to its inevitable tragic end, music was there for me. In many ways, it was all I had. But that wouldn't happen until the end of 1991, so we'll save that for next year.

Please enjoy a selection of music that I truly, madly, deeply love which was released in 1990. That's tonight, midnight to 2am, on KBOO - 90.7 fm here in Portland, kboo dot fm everywhere.

& by the way, this is only the third time I've had one of these birthday shows on my actual birthday!

Preface To 1990: My Twenty-Second Year

what I looked like in 1990

On January 20, 1990, I turned 22 years old. I should have been right about to graduate college*, but because of various things - some of which I detailed on this blog around this time last year - I had decided to take a semester off. I had gotten a twenty-hour-a-week gig at a department at the University of Texas called originally the Language Lab, but now called Liberal Arts Media Center** & would also work, when school was on, in the actual Language Lab nineteen hours a week. It was enough to live on, & I needed a rest from the hellish last six months of 1989. Again, detailed in the post linked above.

At the time, it seemed to me I had a good relationship with a woman who, time would tell, didn't really love me & perhaps never even liked me. But we spent all of our time together so codependence helped me delude myself & - importantly for the relationship - kept her around. We spent all our time together. Her parents had not allowed her to date me - though she was in college - so we weren't allowed to live together, though we basically did. I believe in the summer of 1990 she found a new place to live, & I found a room in a duplex. Since I don't want to repeat myself I'll just say I wrote about that in this blog post here. Since we lived together anyway, I gave up the rented room, & had to live for the next year & a half in a place where I couldn't keep much of my stuff & couldn't answer the phone. The things you do for one-sided love!

Thinking about that time now I note that I didn't have many friends & the people who were in my life then are either absent or peripheral to my life now. (It's really just five or six people.) I did my best to help my "girlfriend" with her schoolwork - I really would do anything for her - & I pretended that I would one day be a writer. I wrote lots of short stories, none of which were any good - & I knew that then. I didn't take any creative writing classes & I never showed them to anyone because I knew they weren't any good. I myself didn't like them.

Hunh. I don't think I've ever admitted that to myself before. I myself didn't like the things I wrote. Maybe I kept writing because I wanted to somehow prove to myself it wasn't true. You might ask when did I stop writing, & I answer is, radio. I stopped wanting to be a writer when I could be somewhat creative on the radio. But - should I have said "spoiler alert" earlier? - but spoiler alert again, that wouldn't happen for four more years.

As for my memories of other parts of my life - I'm sure I talked to my mother from time-to-time. I definitely visited my hometown of Garland once or twice a year - probably on holidays. My mother had worked at a convenience store owned by a man who I guess was her boyfriend but when they sold the store, they sort of broke up - it's a long story & if I haven't told it here, I may one day. She moved into a little one-bedroom apartment - where she would live for tweny-five years - & got a job doing food prep at a Jack In The Box. When I came home, she gave me frozen jalapeño poppers she'd stolen from the fast food place. I saw my siblings around this time but we weren't close. I often didn't have money so didn't get them presents for Christmas & usually didn't want the presents they gave me. That I have no memories of Garland or my family from that year suggests that I didn't think much of them.

Sometime a while back I was looking at some lists of bands who visited Austin in the early 90s & I was amazed how much I had missed. Much of this had to do with money & some of it had to do with my "girlfriend," who could be very unpleasant about seeing shows with bands/musicians she didn't like. I was very excited to see Lloyd Cole, for example, at this lovely venue called Liberty Lunch which doesn't exist today, but when we got there, she decided she didn't like the music. "Why would you bring me to this place?" she asked me, & made us leave***. In any event, I don't think I saw a lot of bands that year.

As to my relationship with music in 1990, it was still deeply important to me, but somewhat sidelined by my relationship, which took up a lot of my energy & attention. I'll have some thoughts about that tomorrow. I did return to school for the fall semester 1990, but have very little memory of my schooling then.

What I can say is, that if you had met me that year, it would have seemed like I was in a good & stable  relationship & was somewhat happy. I'm not good at happy, but I was in love & I was willing to do anything for the one I loved. I was the same with friends. I was helpful because I loved to help. But holy shit looking back now I can't believe I was ever so young. I was so young & I had read so much & learned so much & heard so much music & yet was so very fucking dumb.

Seriously, I am amazed I didn't just fall down a hole & somehow die of a stubbed toe or something.

* You know what I missed by not graduating with my 1990 class? George HW Bush gave the commencement speech. Maybe that's when my life started to go wrong.

** When joking about this name with my co-workers, I admitted I was sad they hadn't decided on the Center for Liberal Arts Media, so we could call the place The CLAM. As it was, they pronounced the acronym "lam-see."

*** I can't find the date for this show on any website but I did discover he returned in 1995 & for some strange reason I didn't see him then. I wonder what stopped me that time?

Coming Up Tomorrow On The Dickenbock Report: X-Rays

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On January 18, 1896, a professor in North Carolina, HL Smith, displayed the x-ray machine for the first time. He didn't invent it. He didn't discover x-rays. He didn't have much to do at all with the science. But he showed it to the world for the first time.

We will therefore use this opportunity to talk about & play musical reports about x-rays on The Dickenbock Report. Which is on a station called XRAY FM. Is the news allowed to be this meta?

Listen tomorrow, Sunday, January 18, from noon to 1pm on XRAY FM - 91.1+107.1fm in Portland, xray dot fm everywhere.

Fun fact: Dick Dickenbock continually proposes that XRAY change its slogan to "We can see right through you." He is continually told to sit down & shut up.

This Week In Self Help January 11 + 13

Though lemonade is technically a juice, I didn't play songs about lemonade on my juice show. So I couldn't use this awesome pic I took at some KNON Blues Fest thing a decade or so ago. Until now!

This week I did this radio here:

Sunday January 11. The Dickenbock Report on XRAY FM. It was Step In A Puddle & Splash Your Friends Day. So I played songs about puddles. Of course. Listen at XRAY FM.

Tuesday January 13. Self Help Radio on KBOO. The theme was juice. Listen at KBOO.

Tuesday January 13. Corporate Standardized Programming on KBOO. An hour of songs by artists we lost in late July/early August of last year. Listen at KBOO (after Self Help Radio).

Damn it, now I'm craving juice again. & maybe some hot & zesty nachos as well.

Self Help Radio 011326: Juice

(image manipulated see note*)

Yikes the juice show was fraught with error! The internet seemed to go out at some point during the show & tho I record my show from home as a back-up to the station's recording, there was a portion of an airbreak missing, which I had to recreate this morning. It's pretty awkward. I'm sure you'll know which one.

But otherwise the show was delicious I thought. Lots of songs, mostly about fruit juices, plus the requisite silly interviews of a juicy nature. I have fun putting together all my shows but I had a lot of fun with this one.

You can listen to the show now & whenever (maybe while sipping juice?) at either the KBOO website or the Self Help Radio website. The latter may ask you for the username SHR & the password selfhelp. Now you know. Everything that happened on the show is noted below.

Enjoy responsibly.

Self Help Radio Juice Show

"White Port & Lemon Juice" The Bel-Aires _The Best Of Flip Records Vol. 2 Death Of An Angel_

"Juice, Juice, Juice" Amos Milburn _Vicious Vicious Vodka_

"Tomato Juice" The Cardinals _Tomato Juice_

introduction & definitions - featuring the Definition-O-Tron 3000

"The Juice Of The Barley" The Clancy Brothers & Tommy Makem _In Person At Carnegie Hall_

"Frozen Orange Juice" Peter Sarstedt _The Very Best Of Peter Sarstedt_

"Pulp" National Lampoon _That's Not Funny, That's Sick_

"Red Apple Juice" Ralph McTell _Streets_

"Grapefruit Juice Blues" Michael Hurley _Snockgrass_

interview with juiceterian Jules Francis

"Grape Juice Plus" The Cupid Car Club _Join Our Club..._

"Carrot Juice Is Murder" The Arrogant Worms _Russell's Shorts_

"Chocolate, Lime Juice" Lata Mangeshkar _Hum Aapke Hain Koun..!_

"Gin & Juice" Sissy Bar _Statutory Grape_

"Grapefruit Juice" Love Love Straw _Dream All Day_

interview with reporter/historian Ted Charles

"Orange Juice" Stanley Brinks & The Wave Pictures _Orange Juice_

"Apple Juice" Penelope Isles _Comfortably Swell_

"Orange Juice" Rose Kemp _A Hand Full Of Hurricanes_

"Orange Juice & Velvet Underwear" Intersystems _Number One_

"Juicebox Baby" The Regrettes _Feel Your Feelings Fool!_

interview with exposé writer Clint Speck

"Carrot Juice" Vegetable Spectacle _Frog Lady_

"Orange Juice" Martha _Love Keeps Kicking_

"Fruit Flavored Teas" George Carlin _When Will Jesus Bring The Pork Chops?_

"Orange Juice" Pop Crimes _Gathered Together_

"Lemon Juice" Dear Misses _Cool Down Under_

conclusion & goodbye

"Skunk Juice" The Panzant Brothers _SuperFunk_

"Apple Juice" Hannibal Buress _Animal Furnace_

"Drinking Carrot Juice" Cowboy Jack Clement _Guess Things Happen That Way_

"Orange Juice Star" Raggedy Ann _Periscope: Another Yoyo Compilation_

"Orange Juice" Bellows _Fist & Palm_

* I took a photo of the label of a bottle of Lakewood Organic Lemon Juice & manipulated it in my clumsy way for this week's image. I hope they don't mind. Here is their website.

Whither Juice?

(image from here)

To explain why the theme of this week's show is fruit, I need to tell you a bit about how awkward I can be when it comes to entertaining guests at my home. A couple of Thanksgivings ago, my wife invited a colleague & her husband to our house for Thanksgiving. I think we had also invited our favorite neighbor couple. I was all right with the menu, I knew what I wanted to cook, but when the time came for drinks, I was at a loss. We asked them what they wanted to drink & they seemed cool with whatever. But what whatever? I drink soda, my wife drinks water. What do other people drink?

Pondering this, I found myself at Costco looking at juices. As you know, you can't buy anything small at Costco, & so I ended up buying two giant containers each of two different kinds of juices. My wife was a bit irritated. "Who is going to drink that?" she asked. Neither of us really drinks juice, you see. I said, "Our Thanksgiving guests." She said, "They won't drink that."

We had the juice out for Thanksgiving but no one wanted any. I think I drank some of the apple juice but that left three giant containers. Which we kept in the garage. They were giant. We don't have a huge refrigerator.

This last Thanksgiving I noticed them. I can't remember if they were expired or not. I should probably check. I knew no one in the house wanted them. But it occurred to me that juice would be a really good theme for a show. & after many weeks, the juice will be freshly squeezed tonight.

That was a long dumb story but it's really how I came up with the theme. I should've probably just said I was having some juice & been done with it.

In any event, that's what's happening on Self Help Radio tonight, midnight to 2am, on KBOO - 90.7fm in Portland, kboo dot fm everywhere. If some of the juice in the garage is still good, I'll take it up to the station with me & drink it all during the show. It'll be a like a cleanse!

Preface To Juice: A Photo I Took

Taken in my neighborhood sometime last year. Nothing to do with juice. Just seemed appropriate for the right now.

Coming Up Tomorrow On The Dickenbock Report: Step In A Puddle & Splash Your Friends Day

January 11 is Step In A Puddle & Splash Your Friends Day. That's what we're reporting on on The Dickenbock Report. Though the weather is not forecasting rain. You'd think, hey, it's Portland in the winter, there's got to be a puddle somewhere. But maybe not on this Step In A Puddle & Splash Your Friends Day. Perhaps we'll report on what to do on Step In A Puddle & Splash Your Friends Day when you don't have any available puddles. That might be a good side report!

We're still working on the show up to airtime! Which is noon tomorrow, Sunday, & the show lasts till 1pm. It'll air on 91.1+107.1fm in Portland & online everywhere - perhaps places with more puddles - at xray dot fm.

Wear your galoshes in any event.

This Week In Self Help: January 2 4 + 6

(image found here)

Yikes, I almost forgot to continue sharing my radio show stuff into the new year. It's just that it has felt like we've experienced several years in the year's first nine days. I am so tired. But I started pretty early with radio shiz this year. Like so:

January 2 on XRAY I subbed a show. Just music & stuff. Listen at the XRAY website.

January 4 on XRAY The Dickenbock Report reported on World Hypnosis Day. Listen at the XRAY website.

January 6 on KBOO Self Help Radio explored the theme puppets. Listen at the KBOO website.

January 6 on KBOO Corporate Standardized Programming played lots of new releases. Listen at the KBOO website (after Self Help Radio).

That is all.

Self Help Radio 010626: Puppets

Okay, so, I had this idea of making a Self Help Radio sock puppet but I ran into a couple of snags. The first was I don't have any white socks, & so had to rummage through my wife's socks, most of which barely fit on my fist - what is it with tiny socks anyway? I managed to find a small white sock & took a picture & then I discovered the second snag - it's not a sock puppet without your fist making the mouth put the Self Help Radio bear has a speaker for a mouth. I didn't grapple with the problem to find a solution. I just said to hell with it. Here's your graphic. I never claimed to be artistic.

Though not a puppet show, the puppets show had plenty of puppets, including Muppets, & many metaphorical puppets too. I talked to a puppet! Perhaps you're a puppet fan, perhaps this will be just up your alley.

Listen to the show now or when you have a puppet party at either the KBOO website or at the Self Help Radio website. If you're using the latter, you might need the username SHR & password selfhelp. In any event, almost everything that happened on the show is listed below.

This show could've used a Statler & Waldorf tho.

Self Help Radio Puppets Show

"It's A Puppet Show" The Telephone Company _The King's Surprise_

"Puppetry" Raylee Forest _My World EP_

"Puppetry" Raul Danks & Jon Taylor _There's A Dream I've Been Saving: Lee Hazlewood Industries 1966-1971_

"Puppet On A String" The Detroit Cobras _Tied & True_

introduction & definitions

"The Young New Mexican Puppeteer" Tom Jones _Close Up_

"I'm Your Puppet" Dionne Warwick _Soulful_

"Popo The Puppet" Danny Kaye _Danny Kaye For Children_

"Puppet Girl" Wendy James _Now Ain't The Time For Your Tears_

"Puppet Boy" Devo _Shout_

interview with Wally the puppet

"Puppet Man" The 5th Dimension _The Very Best Of The 5th Dimension_

"Puppet On A String" Little Lisa _The Complete Motown Singles | Vol. 5: 1965_

"Welcome To The Muppet Show Fan Club" The Muppets _The Muppet Show Fan Club_

"Puppet Master" Marissa Nadler _Marissa Nadler_

"Puppeteer's Son" Jacobites _Heart Of Hearts (The Spanish Album)_

interview with writer Jack Forster

"The Puppet Motel" Laurie Anderson _Bright Red_

"The Puppet" Echo & The Bunnymen _Songs To Learn & Sing_

"Puppet Museum" Sassyhiya _Take You Somewhere_

"The Puppet Lady" Chris Garcia _Laughing & Crying At The Same Time_

"Puppets" Atmosphere _When Life Gives You Lemons, You Paint That Shit Gold_

interview with Portland Puppet Inspector Harrison Thompson

"Puppet" The Clinger Sisters _Havin' A Good Time_

"Puppet On A Chain" 100% Pure Poison _Coming Right At You_

"Puppet Of Wax, Puppet Of Song (feat. Xanthe Waite)" Mick Harvey _Intoxicated Women_

"Puppet" Lisa Germano _Inconsiderate Bitch_

"Muppet" Grasscut _1 Inch / 1/2 Mile_

conclusion & goodbye

"Dance Puppet Dance" Little Pattie _20 Stompie Wompie Hits_

"Mr. Cupid's Puppet Show" The Winnerys _Daily Urban Times_

"Put Your Hand Inside The Puppet Head" They Might Be Giants _They Might Be Giants_

"My Puppet Pal" Tiger _We Are Puppets_

Whither Puppets?

(image by Mr Joshua, found here)

The first Self Help Radio of 2026 is about puppets. & for the life of me I'm not sure why. I did meet a puppeteer in December, but it was certainly before that that I planned the show. I have a feeling it has something to do with a Serge Gainsbourg listening spree from back around Halloween that led me to become reacquainted with Mick Harvey's follow-up recordings, Intoxicated Woman. I had been obsessed with his Gainsbourg covers in the 1990s, Intoxicated Man & Pink Elephants, & had all but forgotten the third record. So I was listening to it, & to the Gainsbourg originals, & enjoyed "Puppet Of Wax, Puppet Of Song" a lot. It was probably why I decided to do a show about puppets.

But who knows? That was what, three months ago? In 2025-2026 time that's like fifty years! I can't be expected to remember that far back!

What I do know is that the Self Help Radio "puppet" show is happening tonight from midnight to 2am on 90.7fm KBOO in Portland, which is also available everywhere at kboo dot fm. It'll be songs about puppets. One day I'll do an entire show with all the songs sung by puppets. But that's not this show.

Preface To Puppets: I Never Had A Puppet

(found on Tumblr)

As a child, I had stuffed animals. I had dolls - insomuch as GI Joes & the like were dolls. I had Fisher-Price humanoids. & most of all I had Star Wars figures - which may as well include what followed from other series. But I never really had puppets.

Which is not to say I didn't love puppets. In talking about this show with someone recently, I mentioned that - besides Sesame Street - I was a fan of puppets on Sid & Marty Krofft series, on Gigglesnort Hotel, on The Great Space Coaster - which featured Gary Gnu - on The New Zoo Revue, & probably many others.

But one thing I didn't have was - okay well two things I didn't have were - a desire to have a puppet & a puppet - even one made from a sock - to manipulate & play with.

Even now I don't think I would enjoy that.

It doesn't mean it wouldn't make a decent radio show tho!

Coming Up Tomorrow On The Dickenbock Report: World Hypnotism Day

The first Dickenbock Report of 2026 involved World Hypnotism Day. What is hypnotism? Can Dick Dickenbock be hypnotized? Will Dick Dickenbock be hypnotized on air? How many musical reports entitled "Hypnotized" can there be? Almost all of these questions - or perhaps none of them - will be answered on the show.

Which airs Sunday, January 4, on XRAY FM - that's 91.1+107.1fm in Portland & online everywhere at xray dot fm. Suggestible listeners should tune in.

This Week In Self Help (Last Year Tho) December 28 + 30

Look it's me walking all my beagles. I did that a lot last year. Though most of the year I only had two beagles. Anyway that was last year. This also was last year.

December 28 The Dickenbock Report on XRAY FM.
It was Card Playing Day. I lost big. Listen to the show at XRAY FM. Listen to the show at Self Help Radio.

December 28 KBOO.
Someone couldn't make their Sunday night show so I stepped in & played lots of newish stuff. Listen at KBOO FM. Listen at Self Help Radio.

December 30 Self Help Radio on KBOO.
The 79th installment of the Indiepop A To Z series. Listen at KBOO FM. Listen at Self Help Radio.

December 30 Corporate Standardized Programming on KBOO.

More music by artists we lost in July 2025. Listen at KBOO FM (after Self Help Radio). Listen at Self Help Radio.

Are you listening at Self Help Radio's website? The username is SHR & the password is selfhelp.

So glad 2025 is over & I don't have to write about it any more!

The Year In (My) Radio (Shows)

A couple of years ago - during the pandemic, probably, when I was doing more radio shows than usual - I started keeping track of the shows I do. & I just spent an embarrassing amount of time trying to count the shows I've done, to get the number of shows plus the amount of time I've wasted spent on the air.

There is a note here. I have two radio shows that air back-to-back - Self Help Radio & Corporate Standardized Programming. They are however two distinct shows - & the latter is prerecorded, so I don't even stick around after Self Help Radio to do the show. I therefore count them as separate shows - though if you don't, you can subtract that number from the total.

What is that total? Here it is:

52 episodes of Self Help Radio.
52 episodes of The Dickenbock Report.
49 episodes of Corporate Standardized Programming.
52 sub shows on KBOO, XRAY, & Freeform Portland*.

That makes 205 radio shows I was responsible for in 2025. I did 104 of them live, 101 of them were prerecorded. It's a total of 304.5 hours of radio in 2025. & this is probably approximate - I had to have missed something somewhere.

In addition, in between Self Help Radio & The Dickenbock Report, I explored 70 new, unique themes.

What to make of this? I dunno. I didn't have a goal in mind or anything. I just made radio shows when I could. & that's how it'll probably be in 2026 too. So, you know. Apologies in advance.

* This includes episodes of The Songcircle, though I am technically a member of the show's collective, & not a substitute deejay, but I started out the year substituting. I'll count it differently if I do this again next year.

Self Help Radio 123025: Indiepop A To Z # 79

(most if not all images from Discogs)

The last Self Help Radio of 2025 is not the last of the Indiepop A To Z series. I just went from Sissies to Slowpoke. I think I have a few more of these to get through just to get to the letter T!

Here's a reminder that almost all the previous episodes are available at the Self Help Radio website. That link should take you to the page that has all the links to the individual episodes. It's a lot. I'll understand if you'd rather listen to a murder podcast or something.

Meanwhile! This show! It's now at the KBOO website & at the Self Help Radio website. For the latter, please use the username SHR & password selfhelp if necessary. It was me talking & playing music so there's nothing else to do but show you the playlist which is below.

Happy new year to you! Thank you for listening in 2025!

Self Help Radio Indiepop A To Z # 79 Show

"Stand Up" Sissies _Look Back & Laugh_

"Daisy Putter" Sissy Bar _Songs For Peeps_

"Bookends" Sister Cities _Library Records 1998-2003_

"Burt Reynolds" Sister Rain _The Sound Of Leamington Spa Volume 1_

"Two Of Us" Sister Vanilla _Little Pop Rock_

"Your Swimming Suit" Six Cents & Natalie _When Punk Fell To Earth_

"You You You You You (feat. Katharine Whalen)" The 6ths _Hyacinths & Thistles_

"The Oysterboat Man" Patrick Skelly & The Prescriptions _The Hedonism EP_

"Lucille" Skinner _Lucille_

"The Thrill Of Thirty Seconds" Skint & Demoralised _Love, & Other Catastrophes_

"Mountain Code 9" Skistar _This Is The Cafe Superstar Beat Vol. 1_

"Bicycle Boy" Skypark _Summer Days Are Forever_

"Movie Star" The Skywriters _The Skywriters_

"Phil Spector's Birthday Song" The Sleazy Beats _Pure Spun Sugar: An International Pop Compilation_

"Inbetweener" Sleeper _Smart_

"Vogelbird" Sleeping Policemen _Sleeping Policemen_

"You & Me Against The World" The Sleeping Years _You & Me Against The World EP_

"Change" Sleepy Township _Library Records 1998-2003_

"Play" Sleepyhead _Play_

"Hot On My Heels" The Slingbacks _Hot On My Heels_

"Baked Alaska" Slipslide _The World Can Wait_

"Typical Girls" Slits _Cut_

"Once & For All" Sloppy Joe _Waiting For The Night Begins_

"Show & Tell" Slow Hello _Audio Baby_

"Not That Hard" The Slow Summits _Every Intention_

"Machine Gun" Slowdive _Souvlaki_

"Half-Life" Slowpoke _Julep: Another Yoyo Studio Compilation_

Whither Indiepop A To Z # 79?

(probly playing something off this tonight - image from here)

Every four months I return to an absurd series that I started too many moons ago in which I play indiepop artists in alphabetical order. This would've ended some time ago but I wanted to be thorough. So, seventy-nine episodes in, I'm at the letter S. & almost certainly will still be on the letter S for some time.

So. If you like indiepop - the genre, not simply "independent pop" - &/or if you're a fan of alphabetization - &/or you like to hear music from lots of places, well then heck. Tonight might be the experience for you.

Self Help Radio airs midnight to 2am on 90.7fm in Portland town, & all over the universe (I'm told) at kboo dot fm. & oh yeah! It's the last show of the year!

Preface To Indiepop A To Z # 79: That Time Again

That's my beagle Pete. It's a pic I shared recently on Bluesky. I actually take a picture a day of him - our youngest hound - & our youngest cat. He's not our newest dog - that's a beagle we adopted about two months ago that we named Stuart. But Stuart is nine years old. Pete is not even yet three. He's still a bay-bee.

It's almost certain I've told this story before but once - before we were married - my girlfriend & I went to see a band - I'm sure it was this band - & they had decorated their tiny stage with all sorts of toys & animals. Afterwards she approached the band & told them they needed a beagle amongst their stuffed toys & one band member said, "It's true, the beagle is the most indiepop of dogs."

If indeed I have told this story before, did I tell it the same? Stories are weird like that. For many people they solidify into songs in their head, unchanged beyond whatever editing one might have done to keep oneself sane. But I suspect that I am constantly rewriting the stories in my head. To make them sound better, obviously, & depending on the intent, to either lessen or increase any humiliation I may have personally experienced. Luckily there was no humiliation in the indiepop beagle story!

Anyhoo. I do this every three months. Not tell stories that may be rewritten but play indiepop in alphabetical order on the radio. I am deep inside the letter S where I'll probably be this time next year too. I always say I don't imagine I will ever finish the series but I never thought I'd still be doing a radio show called Self Help Radio after a few years either. Hardly anything ever turns out like one might have planned. In a sense the older I get the less likely I am to make any plans. Maintaining schedule is understandable, but making plans? That just seems ridiculous.

Coming Up Tomorrow On The Dickenbock Report: Card Playing Day

(art by Elmo Hood, found here)

December 28 is Card Playing Day. If you play your cards right - or if you tune in when the program is on - you can hear a discussion about card playing as well as musical reports about card playing, playing cards, & other related issues. You might even get a chance to hear Dick Dickenbock tell the beloved story about the time he was on The Joker's Wild & was kidney-punched by Jack Berry for making a joke about Uno. Or you might not. Maybe Dick Dickenbock doesn't like telling that story.

The Dickenbock Report airs Sunday, December 28, from noon to 1pm on XRAY FM, available on the air in Portland on 91.1 & 107.1fm, & online everywhere at xray dot fm. We expect to hear you say, "Deal me in!"

This Week In Self Help: December 19 20 21 + 23

'Twas the week before Christmas & I was ruining things by being on the radio TOO MUCH.

On Friday the 19th - my monthly appearance on the Songcircle on KBOO - I invited my old radio pal Anni to program the show & have fun. You can listen to that show on the KBOO website or on the Self Help Radio website.

Early on Saturday the 20th I subbed a show on KBOO where I continued to play musicians who died in 2025 - this time getting through all of June I believe. KBOO doesn't archive its sub shows but you can see the playlist on the Spinitron website & listen to the show on the Self Help Radio website.

Sunday the 21st on The Dickenbock Report on XRAY FM I reported on National Flashlight Day. You can listen to that show on the XRAY website or on the Self Help Radio website.

Tuesday morning the 23rd on Self Help Radio on KBOO I played a selection of my favorite music from 2025. You can listen to that show on the KBOO website or on the Self Help Radio website.

Also Tuesday morning the 23rd on Corporate Standardized Programming on KBOO I played more music by artists we lost in 2025, this time mainly from July. You can listen to that show on the KBOO website (after Self Help Radio) or on the Self Help Radio website.

Remember: on the Self Help Radio website, you may need a username (SHR) & a password (selfhelp) to listen.

& be grateful I am only on the radio a couple more times in 2025!

Self Help Radio 122325: Gary's Favorite Music 2025

Oh man. I have already remembered like two releases I should've included in this collection. Gah I need to keep better records. But anyway.

Here's a selection of some of my favorite releases of the year. I also ask for support for KBOO during our End Of The Year Drive. Support the station that lets me do this nonsense by clicking here.

You can listen to the show on the KBOO website. You can listen on the Self Help Radio website. If needed on the Self Help Radio website use "SHR" as a username & "selfhelp" as a password. Don't use those quotation marks. You understand.

What I played is below. I'll try to pay more attention in 2026.

Gary's Favorite Music 2025 Self Help Radio Show

"Three" Neon Kittens _21 Minutes Of Adventure_

"People Person" Mclusky _The World Is Still Here & So Are We_

"Special Different" Lambrini Girls _Who Let The Dogs Out_

"Portland Town" Heavenly _Portland Town_

"Have U Ever Been 2 Wales" The Bug Club _Have U Ever Been 2 Wales_

"Cologne" Allo Darlin' _Bright Nights_

"Jeanie's Up Again & Blaring Faith By The Cure" Tullycraft _Shoot The Point_

"Rather Not Stay" The Cords _The Cords_

"Mr Young Men" Momus _Acktor_

"Hearsay" Anika _Abyss_

"Celebrities In Cemeteries" The Burning Hell _Ghost Palace_

"Information Content" Horsegirl _Phonetics On & On_

"Saviours Are A Dangerous Thing" The Chameleons _Arctic Moon_

"Living Lo-Fi" Cheekface _Middle Spoon_

"Everyday" Acapulco Lips _Now_

"How Much?" The Slow Summits _Every Intention_

"In Your Town" Paper Jam _This & That_

"Tell Me" Alpaca Sports _Another Day_

"Zinger" Galore _Dirt_

"A Handful Of Tomorrow" The Apartments _That's What The Music Is For_

"God's A Different Sword" Folk Bitch Trio _Now Would Be A Good Time_

"Rocks In My Pocket" The Mountain Goats _Through This Fire Across From Peter Balkan_

"Rainy Sunday Afternoon" The Divine Comedy _Rainy Sunday Afternoon_

"Tell It Back To Me" Robert Forster _Strawberries_

"Self Help Song" The Happy Somethings _A Kind Of Longing EP_

"The Heart Is A Foolish Little Thing" Edwyn Collins _Nation Shall Speak Unto Nation_

"The Catalogue" Chime Oblivion _Chime Oblivion_

"Chaplins" HighSchool _HighSchool_

"Boring" Cousines Like Shit _Permanent Earthquake_ 

"Proper" Autocamper _What Do You Do All Day?_

Whither Gary's Favorite Music Of 2025?

(original image here)

Oh you know. I'm gonna play a lot of the music I liked that was released this year. I don't pretend it's a best of. I also don't pretend it's anywhere near complete - it's mainly indie rock & indie pop, & I listen to a lot more music than that. I gathered way more than two hours' worth as well! The main criteria was that I listened to it a lot. That means to me I liked it.

Midnight to 2am, 90.7 fm in Portland, kboo dot fm everywhere.

Preface To Gary's Favorites 2025: The Old Old Argument

Here's a picture of my beagle Stuart - he's a new addition to the household, having adopted him less than two months ago. He's more fun to look at than to read this dumb story. A variation of which I've told a dozen times.

You see, I don't believe you can make a "best of" list. You can make a list of what you think is best for you, but insisting your opinion is somehow authoritative enough to qualify as "the best" is not only incredibly presumptuous but lacks any qualifiers - how are you the one who gets to decide what's "best"? Who does? With what criteria?

Recently - a couple months ago - I had an interaction with a stranger on Facebook. A friend posted a meme about Yoko Ono. It was hateful. It went something like, "Getting an extra day in 2025 is like getting bonus tracks on a Yoko Ono reissue."

Here is my response:

The Yoko Ono hate is so strangely strong to this day.

I personally was very happy to get the Secretly Canadian reissue of Yoko Ono Plastic Ono Band from 2016 which had three bonus tracks plus a snippet of studio dialogue. Folks like to shit on her but her releases are far more adventurous (in my opinion) than most of the solo Beatles output of the 1970s (& certainly beyond) & this remains (I think) the only Beatle-adjacent release that includes Charlie Haden & Ornette frickin' Coleman.

I just kinda wish people would stop using her as punching bag for their idea of "bad music" when they have so so many more options out there, especially if they're never actually taken the time to listen to her music.

One of this person's friends responded:
In other words, her music is better than it sounds?

I responded:

Taste in music is subjective, & I happen to like quite a lot of Yoko Ono's music. Your mileage, as they say, may vary. If you have no background in avant-garde music, you probably won't enjoy Yoko Ono's music, but that doesn't make her music "good" or "bad" because that's entirely up to you, & your opinion is your own & has no effect on mine or anyone else's, unless they value your opinion in some way. I understand that you meant your comment as a joke, as was the meme posted, but it's in my nature to point out that sometimes things we think are funny are a little tired & hacky, & that sometimes the things we think are universal - "Yoko Ono's music sucks!" - aren't quite that. Her musical output has been greatly admired by more people than you think, & that's the reason her records get reissued - with bonus tracks. That some of us are very happy to buy.

This person continued:

No Gary, there are objective standards for what constitutes good music....talent being a prime requirement. I would have less of a problem if whatever Yoko did was classified as "performance art," but to describe it as music is an offense to actual musicians, singers and songwriters. Lennon's promotion of Yoko was his joke demonstrating the level of abysmal crap the public, and particularly music critics, were willing to accept as "art." Some people still haven't gotten the joke.

My response:

I don't believe there are "objective standards" for music. Love of music is entirely subjective. This is a much longer discussion than can fit in a Facebook comment, but I can assure you that just because you feel your opinion of Yoko Ono is "true," it doesn't make it true for me & for the many other people who have enjoyed Yoko Ono's music for decades. If you'd like to think I have been duped or haven't gotten the joke, that's fine. It just tells me that I probably wouldn't value your opinion of the music I like. It's not important to me that people share my opinion - I love what I love & I can talk at length about why I love what I love. I understand that's true for many other people too & never feel the need to dismiss or diminish their opinions for that very reason. In the case of this post, I just wanted to point out that the joke didn't work on me because - as I've said - I've bought reissues of Yoko Ono albums because of bonus tracks.

This person's final comment included the statement "I can assure you there are objective standards" - like I would take a stranger's word for it! - he tried to bait me by saying my thoughts were akin to Rush Limbaugh's! - & he ended with this delightful suggestion: "If you'd like to send me a link to what you regard as Yoko's best work we can discuss in detail."

After I had said that if he thought there were objective standards for music, he kindly offered to "listen" to what I liked & then tell me whether it was good or not. Isn't it astonishing that I didn't take him up on that offer?

Which is a very long way of me saying the same thing I always say around this time of year: this is no way anyone can say that their selection of music is a "best of." The most they can say is that it's their favorites. "Best" is not a term one can use to describe musical choice unless you define the parameters of how you make that determination. & even then someone will disagree with your parameters & therefore your choices cannot be "the best."

Sorry for the long post. Luckily very few people will read this!