Random thoughts & other unrelated information from the dude who does "Self Help Radio" - a radio show which originated in Austin, Texas & now makes noise in Portland, Oregon. Listen to new & old shows & look at playlists at selfhelpradio.net.
Saturday, November 21, 2020
Photographs Of Places I've Lived # 11: 40th Street
Friday, November 20, 2020
One Last Look Back At The Unknown
You might have missed it, but Self Help Radio's resident cinephile Chuck, whose segment Chuck's Happily Unsophisticated Cinema Korner appears on the show, left you some links in case you wanted to see some of the things he talked about on this week's segment. They were in the comments below the entry, but here they are in the actual blog, so you don't have to squint to read them.
Here is his Twitter thread in which he discusses the movies (& other stuff) he's watching. Very informative!
Even more helpful is his Youtube playlist of the things he watched.
Finally, he has a series of short reviews he collects over on Letterboxd, should you wish to read his thoughts about the things he watched.
This is so cool! I hope you think so too! Chuck will be back in a week or so with another segment. Follow him on Twitter because he details his preparation before the show!
Tuesday, November 17, 2020
Self Help Radio 111720: Unknown
Monday, November 16, 2020
Whither Unknown?
Sunday, November 15, 2020
Preface To Unknown: I Was Remembering Really Sad Stuff
Saturday, November 14, 2020
Recently Seen In The Storm
Fist-fight in the downpour. Mostly feints, rain gets in the eyes.
Who challenged whom? Was it the sort of thing that happened because of a sleight, or was it something that had been building for a while, finally erupting into dumb violence?
We are the passers-by, pretending not to notice, we have no context.
Surprised, really, by the lack of words. Have words failed? No yelling, no posturing, just two somewhat young men with fists up, determined, as rain falls.
You lean closer to say something, but I can't take my eyes away. They were in the street but now they're on the grass, the mud is making them clumsy, they're more likely to slip & fall than fell one another with punches.
Do they notice we've slowed to watch? Is this why they stop? Or has sense prevailed?
One walks away. Spits on the ground as he does. Mutters something I think is "Fuck you."
The other turns, he seems more embarrassed than relieved. He doesn't appear to know where he is. He just starts walking, turns around, walks in a diagonal across the street.
One of our dogs barks at him. He doesn't seem to notice.
Friday, November 13, 2020
Photographs Of Places I've Lived # 10: This Corner House
Tuesday, November 10, 2020
Self Help Radio 111020: Floods
Monday, November 09, 2020
Whither Floods?
Sunday, November 08, 2020
Preface To Floods: Expecting Apocalypse
Were you expecting apocalypse? Yes, I was expecting apocalypse.
What sort of apocalypse were you expecting? More of the same. Only worse.
Not all apocalypses are equal. Nor do we always experience the same apocalypse.
"All apocalypses are local." Not quite.
But this apocalypse didn't happen. It still may.
Yes? Oh yes.
Then what will we do? We'll experience the apocalypse.
Will we survive the apocalypse. Who's to say?
We have survived other apocalypses. Have we, though?
But this apocalypse hasn't happened. No. Not yet.
Wow this is dark. Try living in my head, buddy.
No thanks.
Saturday, November 07, 2020
Okay. Breathe.
Wow. Just wow.
Here's something I should mention: I almost had a panic attack Tuesday night. I was in a pretty bad way. It seems dumb but when Biden spoke it calmed me down. I watched an episode of Voyager & sipped a glass of whiskey.
The counting caused a similar amount of anxiety, but I managed to somewhat contain it. It was more or less manageable, although it did feel a little like a stomach ache & it was accompanied by the recognition, every once in a while, that my heart was beating a little too fast. When the networks called the election today, I still had all that stress & anxiety in me, & it has kept me from getting anything done.
Well, not that - I'm getting stuff done - just too late. I am supposed to turn in the Dickenbock Report by 8am Friday. I finished it tonight. If it doesn't air, it's my fault - my inability to deal with this election.
It's not over because you know the other guy won't concede. & who knows what his stooges are doing behind the scenes to wreck as much of the country on their way out. So - still stress, still anxiety.
Let's see if I can get Self Help Radio done this week. I might need extra sleep. Anyone want to talk to my animals & get them to lay off a bit?
Friday, November 06, 2020
Photographs Of Places I've Lived # 9: Tanglewood North Apartments
Wednesday, November 04, 2020
Self Help Radio 110320: Rings
Monday, November 02, 2020
Whither Rings?
Sunday, November 01, 2020
Preface To Rings: I Should Have Seen A Doctor
Saturday, October 31, 2020
Cancelled Halloween
Walking around the neighborhood tonight, I felt bad that I had assumed that Halloween would be cancelled this year because it almost certainly wasn't. These are the things I observed on our late afternoon dogwalk:
1) People who prepared safe ways for kids to get treats, whether as simple as a bowl (with instructions to save some for others!) or as complex as a barrier, usually a table, with little goody bags for each trick-or-treater.
2) People who were having parties in their front or backyards, probably for neighbor kids, although I am always alarmed by the lack of masks.
3) People who prepared something out in front of their house, somewhat like a block party, but probably a kind of mixing of ways 1 & 2.
Perhaps I was too busy this week, or perhaps too lazy, but at some point either I or the wife decided we wouldn't take part in Halloween. We would pull our window shades down & not turn the porch light on.
What we did do was go out for food - pizza & donuts - & what shocked me was the number of people - adults with children - in costume in the neighborhood. Didn't they know Halloween was cancelled?!?
Or rather, didn't I know you just can't cancel Halloween?
So right now I am full of pizza & a giant donut feeling guilty about not even trying. When we first moved into the house I talked about doing something spooky for Halloween. I wouldn't have presumed to do such a thing this year. & I don't think I would have anyway - but jeez, I could've had a bowl in front of the house or something.
Sigh.
Friday, October 30, 2020
Photographs Of Places I've Lived # 8: The Dolphin Apartments
Tuesday, October 27, 2020
Self Help Radio 102720: Halloween 2020 - Attack Of The Self Help Radio!
Monday, October 26, 2020
Whither Halloween 2020 (Attack Of The Self Help Radio!)?
Sunday, October 25, 2020
Preface To Halloween 2020: Isn't Life Enough Of A Horror?
There are many places on this blog where I recount all my Halloween themes & bemoan the fact that eventually I'll run out of them. I've done Halloween shows about ghosts, vampires, monsters, zombies, witches, werewolves, haunted houses, graveyards, nightmares, hell, mummies, clowns, death, black cats, voodoo, & Frankenstein*. It's only a matter of time until I start repeating myself. But not this year!
But do we really need a Halloween this year? Hasn't everything been horrible enough? Halloween is on a Saturday night this year. I remember when we were kids & Halloween happened on the weekend - I think it was on a Friday in 1981 & a Saturday in 1982 - but by then I had pretty much aged out of trick or treating. Although I probably went, because, you know, candy.
Are there any guidelines for Halloween this year? I don't think I want to hand out candy. Should I be getting candy to hand out? Have I even seen the candy displays at Costco or other stores?
In this sense I'm grateful this year's show is about horror movies. Horror movies are forever. There are probably horror movies about the coronavirus in production as we speak. Hooray for horror films!
Boo for 2020! I suspect it'll only get worse from here, however. The year 2020 has replaced all my hope with nausea & dread. As the disgraced Louis CK once said, "An optimist is someone who goes, 'Hey, maybe something nice will happen!' Why the fuck would anything nice ever happen?"
Boy did he demonstrate that in his own life!
* You can find most of them & even listen to them on the Self Help Radio Halloween page!













